I’m Megan: 30, I adore God, adore my husband, love my family, love my Church!
After 6 and a half years of marriage, during which, God had shown his goodness to us time and time again, our marriage ended. Ian revealed that he’d been living a double life, was head over heels in love with another woman, and after 2 weeks of limbo where he was deciding what to do, who to choose – that was it, our marriage over, dead, gone.
Initially, I had indescribable pain, I absolutely did not want to, and felt like I couldn’t tread the journey ahead of me, but God told me to cling on, so I did. He strengthened me, He provided for me, He comforted me, He spoke to me, He gave me peace, He supplied me hope and a superabundance of grace. I clung on the only way I knew how – praising and worshipping him, reading His word, being in Church.
During our separation, God spoke to me a lot about forgiveness, and He gave me ridiculous grace when speaking to Ian, this transformed me but the situation didn’t improve, it got uglier as Ian moved in with the other woman. When God said (and wise counsel after I didn’t listen) to have nothing to do with Ian, initially I had a surge of anger, felt like it was counter-productive, that Ian would forget me, but I did it. We only spoke by email about bills/house, this was the end of my self-torture, where just to satisfy my desperate longing to be near my husband, I would endure cruelty from him.
God knew the desire of my heart was for us to be reconciled, but I trusted that He knew what was best for me, and ultimately that whatever happened, He would use all this mess for good.
Suddenly, after 3 months Ian started to change as he came to his senses. God spoke to him in the middle of his mess, and that day he made himself single, homeless and jobless without any guarantee from me that I would take him back. Ian returned to his parents house.
We did start the journey of reconciliation, and God told us both at the start that He would resurrect our marriage into something beautiful. At that point, our marriage was as far away from beautiful as could be, the picture we had was of a garden that had been bulldozed to nothing, and then nuked just to make sure it was all dead, but God is faithful! There were many times we had to remind ourselves of this promise, but God was with us and guided us forward. We are unspeakably thankful for all that God has done, we get to enjoy this beautiful resurrected marriage that seemed so far away, and at times impossible in 2011. Our lives have been totally transformed!
The purpose of this blog is to record some of the things God taught us along the way and what He’s cultivating in us now. We desire that what is written on this blog brings hope and encouragement to all who find their way here.
God is immense!